“I find myself regarding existence as though from beyond the tomb, from another world; all is strange to me; I am, as it were, outside my own body and individuality; I am depersonalized, detached, cut adrift. Is this madness?”
-Henri Frédéric Amiel
Depersonalization is a dissociative disorder which induces a state of automation, making the afflicted feel “a going through the motions, a disconnection from one’s body, and a difficulty relating oneself to reality.”
Since I quit smoking, I have been having feelings associated with depersonalization. Even as I write this, I feel my own breath in my lungs. It feels small and contained. I feel as though it could stop at any time, yet I am completely calm. Completely relaxed. I don’t know how I am going to deal with others or, how I will come out of my shell. I feel morosely introverted. I feel as though life is passing me by.
The cause for such a disorder (as listed on several websites) are hereditary, emotional/physical/mental abuse, refusing to acknowledge a childhood memory, accidents, war, or torture.
I was in Whole Foods the other day holding a skillet. It was small and heavy and reminded me of centuries past, where stove-tops were bonfire’s, and washing machines were rivers. I must have held that heavy skillet in my hand for five minutes without moving or speaking, and seemed to come out of it—only to breathe.
I believe I have acquired this strange disorder by brushing with baking soda. Having absolutely no facts to back that up, I decided to do a little research and was shocked at what I discovered.
“I’ve been using baking soda about two months and I can’t imagine going back to toothpaste.”
“Using baking soda instead of tooth paste is a great choice.”
“I’ve been using tooth-brush dipped in baking soda box for about 7 yrs now….my teeth never have aches or pains. I’ve also never had any dissociative disorders.”
“Baking Soda is very healthy, and as you can see from others comments, have shown improvements straight away after getting off toothpaste, and, in no way, causes depersonalization disorder.“
You’ve won this round baking soda. But I promise you—the war is far from over.